Libra Season -When we are balanced, there is harmony

This time of the year always brings me joy. Here in my part of the world, we are experiencing Fall, the trees are changing, leaves are falling and there is a crispness to the air. I think that I am feeling even more happy because September was messy, wild and energetically draining. I can't be the only one that felt an energy hangover the WHOLE eclipse season?! I really had to practice self-care HARD last month, napping, hydration, saying no to a lot of things I normally wouldn't..... I remembered thinking "who am I?, this isn't me!" Then i had an epiphany.

MAYBE this is me!? The REAL me. Becoming sober has meant I've been discovering myself all over again, like the real version of me had been buried for a very long time. This was a part of me screaming at myself to SLOW DOWN! This required some attention so naturally I paused and reflected like a good little Pisces Rising that I am. I think there's always been a part of me that has loved being busy because that meant I couldn't feel anything if I was distracted. This is something that is an old survival mechanism that still lives in my body, it surfaces every now and then to kick my ass back into alignment (thank you for the reminder nervous system, now back to the story....)

Society puts so much pressure on us to raise our family but then you have to also work full-time, then you have to pay for your house and your bills, pay a million dollars a month to eat healthy and feed your family, be a good mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, god forbid you have pets - they aren't cheap either...so the pressure builds to do more, DO MORE AND MORE! . There is a breaking point and I found one of mine during eclipse season.

I found myself driving in my car after a fight with my husband going no where in particular on the day of the eclipse, crying and wanting to run away from everything. Everything felt so fucked up in my body and mind, it felt like i was, to some capacity, "coming undone"

So naturally I called my mom. Once I hung up the phone, I realized that it wasn't my mom I needed in that moment, it was me nurturing myself, the little me that lives within. Inner child work has been a part of my life for a long time, yet, in this moment I had forgot about some of my core wounding and how it can surface. I had become so busy and externally focused that I had cut off a part of me that would pay attention to "little Stephie". I wasn't in harmony at all and it was very painful.

So began the eclipse patterns coming to the surface so that I can heal and move on. SO what have I done you may be asking yourself? Everything requires discernment. Can it wait until tomorrow?? I ask this with everything now. I ask for help with more things AND I take moments throughout my day when I need some quiet time and lay down. I have become a professional napper - just a little nap goes a long way! My biggest task has been speaking up when I feel overwhelmed, upset or hurt. The emotional overload I felt at the eclipse was not something I want to keep reliving- ever. Little Stephie needs to feel heard and safe, and when she does, HARMONY happens because I truly feel that inner sense of balance.

So ask yourself - what surfaced for you last month and what did you release in order to heal yourself? What is it that you need to do in order to bring more peace and harmony into your life RIGHT NOW? I invite you to start saying NO to things that aren't a resounding YES in your body. Say No to people that drain you, that don't fully align with you, your energy and your values. Libra season is associated with the Air element, this is our voice and our breath - without the breath we cannot live, it supports us and our voice needs to be heard just like we need air to breath. This season requires self-care just as much as Virgo season, so whatever may be lingering in your mind and body after that wild eclipse season, your chance to let it go is on the Full Moon. Here are some important Astrological dates this month:

• Full Supermoon in Aries - Oct 6th@11:47pm ET -14 degrees Aries

• Pluto Direct - Oct 13th@10:52pm ET - 1 degree Aquarius

• New Moon in Libra - Oct 21st@8:52am - 28 degrees Libra

• Neptune Rx enteres Pisces - Oct 22nd@5:51am ET

• Sun enters Scorpio - Oct 22nd@11:51pm ET

My friends, take good care of you, all of the parts of you.